Don't Scared To Talk

SDEROT, Israel – Worn down by thousands of rockets fired from the nearby Gaza Strip, an estimated one-seventh of the people of this Israeli town have fled. Many more say they would go if they could. The mayor says life here has become "impossible."

This is all welcome news to Gaza's Islamic militants, who say their goal is to turn Sderot into a ghost town. While no one in Israel considers that a realistic scenario, the unrelenting barrage of missiles is pushing Israel ever closer to an armed showdown with the Hamas hard-liners who rule the Gaza Strip.

Last week, Israeli fire killed more than 30 Palestinians, mostly armed militants, and rocket barrages continued unabated.

The rockets are homemade and inaccurate, especially by comparison with the deadly high-tech weaponry Israel deploys to suppress the attacks. But they have killed 12 people in Sderot and neighboring villages in the past six years, wounded dozens more and caused millions of dollars in damage.

Residents say the worst part of their disrupted life is the constant fear – never knowing where the next rocket will fall. "I am falling apart; it is killing me; it is killing my family," says Shulamit Sasson, 44.

Her family of seven sleeps side by side on mattresses on the living room floor, to be close to a makeshift bomb shelter. Two of her children are afraid to bathe or even undress lest they be caught unready for an incoming rocket. Her 13-year-old son wets himself each time he hears public loudspeakers blare "tseva adom" – "color red" – meaning a rocket will arrive in less than a minute.

This month, a rocket landed next to the Sasson home, blasting away the windows and filling it with a cloud of smoke. Ms. Sasson said she spent five days in the hospital with trauma.

The Israel Trauma Center for Victims of Terror and War, a nonprofit group that works with Tel Aviv University, says it polled 500 adults in the town of 24,000 in July and found that 91.9 percent had witnessed a rocket landing near them, and 48.4 percent in the closely knit community know someone who was killed. As a result, 28.4 percent of adults older than 18 have severe forms of post-traumatic stress disorder, it said.

"These are not people who are simply feeling bad. In the middle of the night, they are woken up by their own thoughts, by their own fears, by the memory of these fears," said Marc Gelkopf, who conducted the telephone survey. "We're talking about stressed-out people who are not able to function well in couple relationships. People who are not able to hold down jobs."

Ms. Sasson said that four years ago a rocket landed near her son, Raziel, then 9, inside a schoolyard and sent him into shock. She says she hasn't worked since and her boy has never recovered.

"My son goes to school, hears a siren, wets his pants and comes home, is that a normal child? A 13-year-old boy that needs me to go into the shower with him – is that a normal boy? I need to stand next to him when he goes to the bathroom – is that a normal child?" she said, her jumpiness evident in her trembling hands. "I cannot be this child's psychologist; I cannot be his social worker. I am his mother – that's all I can be."

The plight of those like Ms. Sasson has Israel's government in a quandary.

Having promised the public that its withdrawal from the Gaza Strip in 2005 would make Israelis safer, it now faces a Hamas government that is arming itself and vowing never to accept Israel's existence.

Palestinian moderates may accept the existence of a town like Sderot, built for Jewish immigrants in the 1950s within Israel proper, but Islamic radicals view it as no different than a settlement in the West Bank – illegitimately built on Arab land.

Prime Minister Ehud Olmert has repeatedly said he is not eager to venture on a risky Gaza operation. But no Israeli government perceived as weak on defense can survive for long, and it is widely assumed among Israelis that Mr. Olmert eventually will be forced to send the army into Gaza.

The consequences are hard to foresee. Sderot is less than a mile from Gaza, but a full-blown war could result in longer-range Palestinian rockets hitting cities and strategic targets farther away.